Working Against Myself
I don’t understand what I am doing.
Honestly I don’t.
I work out hard. I am following my training plan for the 5k run. I drink water all the time. I plan my meals for Weight Watchers so I can stay on track with my points. I do all the right things, or at least know all the things I should be doing to lose weight and be healthy.
And then I completely do the opposite when I actually start eating.
There are apples on the counter, but I go straight to the cabinet where my little brother’s food is. Do I need swiss rolls for breakfast? No. Do I really even like swiss rolls? Not particularly. Am I going to eat them anyway? Yeah. Two packages of them. Oh the processed sugary calories.
As I eat them my workout for later today is in my mind. I am about to cancel out all that hard work, but I eat them anyway. I don’t understand what I am doing. I really don’t.
I want to lose weight. I do. Maybe I should start making a list of reasons why or all the other tips to help stay on track. All I know is there is a mental battle of weight loss that right now I am losing.
Am I sabatoging myself when I really want something?
I am so annoyed with myself.
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Often when we reach for food we know we shouldn’t be eating, it’s becuase we’re looking to fill a need that has nothing to do with food. We’ve leanred along the way that food meets that need (or covers it up) for the moment, so we do it automatically, without thinking.
When you track your food in your journal (and that includes those swiss rolls!) try writing what you’re feeling as you eat them - or better yet, what you were feeling as you reached for them. Be very patient with yourself because it takes a LOT of practice and effort to uncover those emotional reasons we turn to food.
Keep posting and stay aware. That awareness is the first step to success!
Hugs to you!
This is why I think we do it:
Food addiction involves the repetitive consumption of food against the individuals better judgment resulting in loss of control and preoccupation or the restriction of food and preoccupation with body weight and image.
Its an addiction. Just as if it was booze or drugs or sex. We do it against our better judgment knowing full well its not right for us. Its hard to fight an addiction. Its really not as simple as just not doing it.
My 2 cents of course. Take from it what you want . Pitch the rest lol.
Hang in there. You are doing great!! You are still working out. You don’t eat constantly bad things for you. Its a life style change that takes time but that we will always struggle with. I am figuring out there is no magic “we did it line” when it comes to eating. It is something we will deal with forever.
*BIG HUGS*
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I can understand where you’re coming from to a point - but I LOVE Swiss Cake Rolls.
I read somewhere the other day that one of the big mistakes we make is making too many drastic changes at once. I need the drastic changes, but sometimes it can be overwhelming. When I lost my weight the first time (9 years ago), I made 1 change per month. It started with giving up fast food. The next month, I kept the no fast food rule and added exercise. The next month, I kept the previous two and gave up elevators.
All I’m saying is that if this doesn’t feel do-able to you right now, you may be expecting too much. Make the gym your priority for the next 30 days. When that is a habit, change your eating.
It’s what you do over and over that determines who you will become, not the single Swiss Cake Roll incident.
Keep your chin up! You’ll get there!
Its odd how we all do this to ourseleves…stay positive….you can do this…
yes that is always hard…when you can surround yourself with what will support you but then you go for the things that wont. I posted something great on my blog about making conscious choices and going through your thoughts before making a decision to eat unhealthy. It was in a Marie Claire issue. it may help!
It’s an imperfect process, but you’re doing a whole lot of good things for yourself. Try to focus on those things–workouts, water, planning–and give yourself a break on the slip-ups. You’ll still get to where you want to be, I’m sure of it!
Thanks for stopping by my blog.
I’ve been stressed this week getting ready to remodel our kitchen and I’ve noticed that I’m reaching for food I haven’t even liked all week. Darn emotional eating. I know I’m not hungry.
Writing everything down keeps me accountable and if I write it on my blog , I get a good KITA!
I’ve done the same thing 1000 times. I make the plans, I know what to do, I know how to diet, I know how to exercise but when it comes to following through, something somewhere goes wrong. You’ve had so much great advice about addiction and habits. I think they are all right. We have to find a way to make new habits. Instead of reaching for whatever food we want to reach for, do something else instead, something, anything. I have a friend who polishes her nails, another friend who will brush her teeth so the food won’t taste good. You have to find what is going to be your distraction from food. You have to find a way to make a new healthy habit for you that will last a lifetime. Its not going to be easy. If it were easy we’d all have to blog about fashion, our dogs or something else.
Hang in there, you can get through this, you are WORTHY and WORTH getting through this, don’t ever forget it!
Wow, you have been given such loving and caring advise. All I can add is, “Keep your head up. Move forward and don’t look back.” I’ve turned to popcorn when my desire for ice cream gets strong. You can do it. Find an outlet and inch toward it a little each day.
Thank you all such much for the great advice! I am so thankful for you guys.
Hm… all in all I’m agree with you, but your readership… what are they gonna say about it?
You have to revise your opinion. Repeating this nuttery misses your point. Give us proofs. Not just with words, but with deeds.
Your blog is very informative, I have learned so much from it. It is like daily newspaper :). Added to fav?s.
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