Fat Girl First Impressions

I am ‘the fat girl.’ Always have been. Most statistics say I always will be.

But I am so tired of this being my one defining characteristic. When people meet me their first impression always includes a notice of the fat. Rarely do they voice it, although some do, but it is obvious. How can it not be when my weight is the most noticeable thing about me?

In high school, I never tried to lose weight but I did try to divert attention from my size. For some reason I thought that if something else stood out about me no one would notice how fat I was.

So I dyed my hair purple.

Being the purple-haired girl instead of the fat girl comforted me for a while. When people met me I knew they noticed the purple hair first. I wanted people to look at my hair and think I was a bit crazy instead of looking at my waist and thinking I had one donut too many.

After a while I grew tired of being the girl with purple hair. My hair is now back to a natural color and even the style is moderately normal, and I am back to being the fat girl.  I hate it.

Now when people meet me they know that I have trouble making food decisions. Usually they also assume I don’t workout. Unless I see them at the gym and watch the surprised expression fade away, I am just judged as another fat person with all the negative connotations (i.e. lazy) associated with it. I am judged unfairly because of the way I look.

Reason #3 I want to lose weight: First Impressions. I want to be at a healthy weight so people can meet me and notice me instead of my weight.