Posts from — March 2008

I basically have one month until the race I am supposed to run. Good Lord that is soon. I am worried, really worried.

This is going to be an intense month. For sure. I have got to get my act together.

Alcohol. Pizza. Cake. Ice cream. Lots of it.

Need I say more?

Break was good for my disposition, but not for my health.

And I haven’t been online much to do the blog thing.

Oh well.

Oh dear…I am on spring break.  While I really would love to be anywhere else, I am okay with being home. I probably could use the time to catch up on some assignments.  But since I have a relatively easy week ahead of me I have to do some hardcore exercising.  

So here is my little plan for the week. 

Today:  Weights and  walk 1 mile. 

Sunday:  Walking on Easter. Good.  Walk 3 miles. 

Monday:  Biking…. sweet action.  Love biking so, ride the bike for 1.5 hours. 

Tuesday:  Swim day! Find a pool and swim for one hour. At least try to.  

Wednesday:  Bike for 1.5 hours.  Try to recover from swimming. Haha.   

Thursday:  Swim day!  Find a pool and swim for one hour.  Try not to drown.   

Friday:  Either bike or walk today. Its not important. 

Saturday:  Weights.  Buff girl time. 

Sunday:  Go back to Jackson. Get back to the apartment and get ready for school.  Hurray? 

This is mainly more for me so I know what I am doing. :)  Maybe later I will post something full of good insight. :) 

I am scared. Really, I am.It has been several weeks since I checked my google reader to see what blog entries I have missed reading. After several weeks I know there are way more posts to read than I ever can or even should.Even though I have let my blog reading slip I still enjoy checking out everyone’s weight loss progress.  Sometimes it seems like I am alone in this mess, especially with all my skinny junk food eating friends around me, but when I think of everyone online writing about their journey I feel so much stronger.  I like reading this posts, but I probably won’t read the 361 I have missed. Keep writing though everyone.  Whether you know it or not it helps others. 

Hanlie suggested I explore the reasons for my apathy toward weightloss. Very good idea, except I am not just apathetic toward weightloss, but everything in my life. I could care less about school, which is a first for me. I have always cared a little, but today I almost didn’t go to class when we had a test. I just didn’t care.

Don’t get me wrong, Im not depressed or anything, I am just very apathetic. I feel like nothing holds my interest for longer than a few seconds and even then it is a very small amount of interest.

So instead of exploring the causes of this apathy, which really could use a therapist to sort it all out, I am just going to go with the other suggestion… listing reasons why I want to lose weight so I can kick start myself with some super motivation.

The reason for weight loss currently on my mind is clothes. I realized the other day that I generally wear jeans and tshirt because I want to cover myself up, not because they are comfortable (which they are).  I forgo a lot of cute outfits and clothes combinations because I am not comfortable with how clothes fit me. I am a 14/16 so I usually buy clothes at normal stores, but they don’t seem to look good on me. Or at least I don’t think they do. So I don’t wear half the stuff I buy.

I like to buy new clothes, especially dresses, but I haven’t been doing that as much since I jumped up to this weight.  I want to lose weight so I can buy cute things then actually wear them. Its no fun to have a closet of clothes you don’t want to wear because you feel fat or to go shopping and buy nothing because nothing looks good.

I have decided that when I get down to 180 I will get myself a little shopping spree (maybe dollars equal to pounds, which for me is a spree). It will also be a little trip because I will go to St. Louis to do the shopping. I am going there because they have an H&M, my FAV store from Europe that I definitely can’t shop at here in Memphis. I can’t wait… sooo excited about that haha.

Well, well, well. I haven’t been on my blog, or looking at any one else’s for a week. That is definitely not normal. But now… back to normal… I have a new computer and will be able to check on blogs more often.  Hurray!

So,this week has been iffy regarding weight loss.  I guess my heart just isn’t in it these days. My training, my eating, it is all just on the back burner. Strange, since nothing is on the front burner. I have nothing, absolutely nothing, that should be stopping me from putting my full effort behind losing weight.

I have nothing stopping me… I just need to do it.  My goal for next week is to put more effort behind losing weight, specifically behind exercising.  Work it out.

Focus girl, focus!  Work harder! Graduation is coming up and I need to look GOOD.  

I totally forgot about check-in on Tuesday. I actually wasn’t anywhere near a computer, so I guess it wouldn’t have helped to remember. I’m at work so this will be quick: No change!

My goal for this week is to run a lot more because last week I only ran once. Sad day.

Today I sat down to do something and instead at half a box of my roommates Cheez-Its. Hope she isn’t mad.

The bad eating trend continued with the cheerios I am eating now. Snacky, snacky me.

This emotional eating is brought to you by a terrible case of money loss. Just when I felt like I was as broke as I possibly could be, I lost 400 to a scam. On top of losing 400 dollars, I feel quite stupid.

Mmmmm, cheerios. Wait, eating costs money. I must stop eating! :) At least I have found a new weight loss plan.