Clothes/Shopping - A Reason to Lose Weight

Hanlie suggested I explore the reasons for my apathy toward weightloss. Very good idea, except I am not just apathetic toward weightloss, but everything in my life. I could care less about school, which is a first for me. I have always cared a little, but today I almost didn’t go to class when we had a test. I just didn’t care.

Don’t get me wrong, Im not depressed or anything, I am just very apathetic. I feel like nothing holds my interest for longer than a few seconds and even then it is a very small amount of interest.

So instead of exploring the causes of this apathy, which really could use a therapist to sort it all out, I am just going to go with the other suggestion… listing reasons why I want to lose weight so I can kick start myself with some super motivation.

The reason for weight loss currently on my mind is clothes. I realized the other day that I generally wear jeans and tshirt because I want to cover myself up, not because they are comfortable (which they are).  I forgo a lot of cute outfits and clothes combinations because I am not comfortable with how clothes fit me. I am a 14/16 so I usually buy clothes at normal stores, but they don’t seem to look good on me. Or at least I don’t think they do. So I don’t wear half the stuff I buy.

I like to buy new clothes, especially dresses, but I haven’t been doing that as much since I jumped up to this weight.  I want to lose weight so I can buy cute things then actually wear them. Its no fun to have a closet of clothes you don’t want to wear because you feel fat or to go shopping and buy nothing because nothing looks good.

I have decided that when I get down to 180 I will get myself a little shopping spree (maybe dollars equal to pounds, which for me is a spree). It will also be a little trip because I will go to St. Louis to do the shopping. I am going there because they have an H&M, my FAV store from Europe that I definitely can’t shop at here in Memphis. I can’t wait… sooo excited about that haha.