Category — Goals

I made this video as a little reminder of some of the things I want to do when I get rid of some weight.  They are all things I can’t do now because of the weight and I can’t wait to do them!

Hanlie suggested I explore the reasons for my apathy toward weightloss. Very good idea, except I am not just apathetic toward weightloss, but everything in my life. I could care less about school, which is a first for me. I have always cared a little, but today I almost didn’t go to class when we had a test. I just didn’t care.

Don’t get me wrong, Im not depressed or anything, I am just very apathetic. I feel like nothing holds my interest for longer than a few seconds and even then it is a very small amount of interest.

So instead of exploring the causes of this apathy, which really could use a therapist to sort it all out, I am just going to go with the other suggestion… listing reasons why I want to lose weight so I can kick start myself with some super motivation.

The reason for weight loss currently on my mind is clothes. I realized the other day that I generally wear jeans and tshirt because I want to cover myself up, not because they are comfortable (which they are).  I forgo a lot of cute outfits and clothes combinations because I am not comfortable with how clothes fit me. I am a 14/16 so I usually buy clothes at normal stores, but they don’t seem to look good on me. Or at least I don’t think they do. So I don’t wear half the stuff I buy.

I like to buy new clothes, especially dresses, but I haven’t been doing that as much since I jumped up to this weight.  I want to lose weight so I can buy cute things then actually wear them. Its no fun to have a closet of clothes you don’t want to wear because you feel fat or to go shopping and buy nothing because nothing looks good.

I have decided that when I get down to 180 I will get myself a little shopping spree (maybe dollars equal to pounds, which for me is a spree). It will also be a little trip because I will go to St. Louis to do the shopping. I am going there because they have an H&M, my FAV store from Europe that I definitely can’t shop at here in Memphis. I can’t wait… sooo excited about that haha.

Well, well, well. I haven’t been on my blog, or looking at any one else’s for a week. That is definitely not normal. But now… back to normal… I have a new computer and will be able to check on blogs more often.  Hurray!

So,this week has been iffy regarding weight loss.  I guess my heart just isn’t in it these days. My training, my eating, it is all just on the back burner. Strange, since nothing is on the front burner. I have nothing, absolutely nothing, that should be stopping me from putting my full effort behind losing weight.

I have nothing stopping me… I just need to do it.  My goal for next week is to put more effort behind losing weight, specifically behind exercising.  Work it out.

Focus girl, focus!  Work harder! Graduation is coming up and I need to look GOOD.