Category — Personal

The title says it all, but I might as well elaborate for the five people or so who will read this. :)

It has been really hard for me to find the motivation to leave the house and go get a workout in.  Im doing the self employed thing right now, so my schedule is very flexible.  Its not that I don’t have time to leave the house and work out.  Its just that I can’t seem to make myself do it. 

This whole situation makes me sad because exercising is usually my favorite part about staying healthy and losing weight.  But I stopped for a while with finals and graduation and a trip afterwards… and now…. now my body doesnt seem to remember the joy it got from working hard.  It seems stuck in lazy mode.  And my brain is all to happy to support the decision to stay lazy. 

I know that if I don’t get back out there no one is going to make me.  And if I don’t start again I will NEVER run a 5k like I want to.  Which not being able to run the race I had planned because of other commitments threw me off.  Once I realized I wasnt going to get to run that I kind of gave up my training.  Apparently I need to find a new 5k race to have as a goal and make sure no other event conflict with the date! 

At home I have very little support or motivation.  I always work out alone  because none of my friends want to go.  I will have to motivate myself and that has been hard to do lately.  Very hard to do.  This lack of motivation is really hurting me.  I haven’t worked out in an entire week!  Here is to hoping I talk myself into working out today.  My body could use a good bout of exercise.

I have been such a blogging slacker!  School is just taking up so much of my time and thought that I can barely do anything else.  But I am going to try to sneak in some time.  My class this morning was canceled so I am going to go read some blogs.

News for me:

• 5k is off for May because I actually have a wedding to attend that same time. Oops.  I am bad about getting dates mixed up.

• The 1600 cal diet is turning into more of a flexible 1800 cal diet, which is okay because it will probably still be         effective.  I am already tired of counting up calories though, so we shall see how long it lasts.
• School is crazy because it is that time of year and because of the crazy lack of work we did in the beginning thanks to the tornado.  So now its hardcore and I am not enjoying it.
• Looking for a job is not going well.  I am going to graduate and end up working at Starbucks.  :) I can’t tell if I hate that idea or am in love with it.

I am a student at Union University in Jackson, Tennessee. My school was devastated by the tornadoes on Tuesday, but I am safe and well as are all the students at Union. By the grace of God no one was killed when the tornado ripped through the dorms with 1200 students there. It is a miracle for our community, that even though many have lost everything they are alive. I am sorry for the loss of life and property in the rest of our state. God bless everyone affected by these storms.

This list has been circulating on several weight loss blogs since it was posted on the Healthy You Challenge blog. The orginial idea came from the awesome blogger Krissie. I think it is a great idea because usually emotional eating is the cause of those unwanted extra pounds. It is important to notice the good things about our bodies and lives, instead of always pointing out the negatives. Here is my list. :)  

The “I LOVE ME” List

1. What do you absolutely love about your body? My face! I have a great face that conjures up the most animated expressions. I can make most people laugh without even saying anything.

2. When did you surprise yourself with your physical strength? When I worked out with a friend and realized I was lifting twice the amount of weight she was on everything.

3. When were you braver than you ever thought you could be? Leaving home to live in Europe for four months. Since I didn’t know the language (German) it was an adventure!

4. When did your self-control blow you away? My self-control blows me away every time it shows itself. Every time I chose a salad over a sandwich and fries, or eat less than I want at a party, I am amazed that I did it.

5. What is your proudest moment ever? It is a tie between snowboarding in the Alps (because of the fact that I could snowboard and I was in the freakin Alps) and being published in the newspaper for the first time (because it really is fun to see your name in print).

6. When was the last time you felt absolutely beautiful? When I was at my lowest weight and all my clothes were too big. I looked like I needed to go shopping but I felt absolutely gorgeous.

7. Why do you deserve to meet your goals? Because I will work hard to meet them. I will log in the time and effort and stop treating myself poorly. I can see the kind of life I want and I am going to get it.

Today I have been working on creating a media guide for Jackson, TN for my PRSSA (Public Relations Student Society of America) Chapter. I thought I would be working on the design already but so far I have spent several hours just organizing the information sent to me by other members for the media guide. What I have realized through this little experience is that I want everything to be perfect. I am a perfectionist.

It is not enough for me that the information is mostly complete or that it is “as good or better” than the model media guide we have. I want it to the best, all correct, uniform on each entry… because the end product will be something I have to stand behind. I always want my work to be the best it possibly can be. How can people be satisfied with doing crappy work? Do they just not realize how bad it is, or do they just not care?

Well, after checking out this list I am pretty sure I am a perfectionist, at least when it comes to work.

Ten Top Signs Your a Perfectionist:

1. You can’t stop thinking about a mistake you made.
2. You are intensely competitive and can’t stand doing worse than others.
3. You either want to do something “just right” or not at all.


4. You demand perfection from other people.


5. You won’t ask for help if asking can be perceived as a flaw or weakness.


6. You will persist at a task long after other people have quit.


7. You are a fault-finder who must correct other people when they are wrong.


8. You are highly aware of other people’s demands and expectations.

9. You are very self-conscious about making mistakes in front of other people.

10. You noticed the error in the title of this list.